Deep

The last few days have been up and down. First, saying goodbye to Sarah at the airport was not enjoyable. But I have hope that I'll see her again. It hits harder now that I've returned from class and she wasn't there (like it had been last week).

Enough self-pity. The weekend was an enjoyable experience. Friday I played some basketball and had a few drinks down at the Well (the bar under our apartment). The next day was a trip out to Manly to watch the Curl family. Or, more specifically, Nick, Blake, and Tyler. My job was to make sure they behaved themselves and did their chores. Hardly an insurmountable task. Their house up in Manly is beautiful; a five minute walk to the beach included. I spent the last two nights there, returning here with a full stomach and a sense of excitement.

A deep thought from today: I feel handicapped by a fear of the future. I frustrate myself with a desire for an easy life; to get what I want and for things in my head to play out exactly the way I want them to. Such is not the case. Life for no one is easy. If that was the order of life, where would the fun be? Part of the reason that I went on this excursion was to delay the inevitability of working behind a desk everyday from 9-5. Unfortunately, that prospect offers comfort that I need to seek elsewhere. Because I can't rely on myself to overcome the weight of the world, now can I?